Live

The past few days have me stuck in bed feeling horrible, but while I have been feeling like roadkill it has given me some time to think, rot my brain with useless videos, rest (of course), but to also put some things into perspective for me. This forced time to rest has in a weird way shown me somethings that I would like to accomplish in life. I have started this running list in my head, I have just steadily been adding to it.

I watched a video a few minutes ago that was so empowering; it makes me want to leap out of bed and get a move on. This video talked about people saying that they just “don’t have the time” to do the things they really want in life. She goes on to say that those things that mean the most to us we always find the time for, we find the money to do it, we create the opportunity to accomplish those things that are so important to us. We find a way. It stopped my brain in its tracks because she is right. I sit here and think about all the things I want in life and my excuses for why I don’t. I don’t have the time, I don’t have the money, I don’t have the energy… I don’t I don’t I don’t.

All these negative reasons for why I don’t do the things I want to do. I watched another video today that this guy did and he talked about all the people in life who have loss or hardship in their lives, they are the ones who know how valuable life is. They are the ones who when they lose the most in life, how much they live it afterwards. How they make sure that every day counts. I don’t want to be one of those people who only after such tragedy finally find the courage to live the life they want.

I want to live; I want to live my life now. I don’t want to give excuses for skipping out on the things that excite me, or the things that scare me. I want to live my life to the fullest now. I want to explore the world while my body can carry me. I want to make friends, to smile, to laugh and to love until I feel as though I could burst and then I want to do it some more.

In the video with the woman she said that no one will ever care as much as you do for your dreams. And she is right. My God she is so incredibly right. That sentence spoke volumes to me. My dreams are not anyone else’s but my own, while there are people out there that support your dreams; you are the one with the passion. You are the one with the drive. Only you know how truly important something is to your soul.

I don’t want to go out of this life not doing the things that I truly want to do. I want to live fearlessly. I want my kids to know that it is possible to reach your dreams, and that you should never stop dreaming.

I want to live.

I’m ready, so so ready.

The only problem now is, which dream to accomplish first?